Life

Did you?

Did you ever think how this would affect me? Do you realize how it hurt me? Why? I’ll I want to know is why you had to hurt me like you have. I did nothing but try and give it my all and you hurt me. You promised that you never would… I guess that’s a big surprise!

You said you were different and that was a lie. What else? Are you happy with what you did?

When i think of you, I smile. You light up my day! I see you smile and I smile :)

But, now your gone and I don’t talk to you and I don’t laugh with you. I laugh with someone else now. And you just left me so it’s your fault I am gone. You left me, alone. I had to find my own way. I had to learn to trust people I never could before. And I did! Although, i want to hate you. I want to thank you for making me stronger. You may think you destroyed me and I thought you did at first to. But, I realized that you didn’t and now I don’t know if you realized but you should know you did. :) Thank you

What do you want me to do or say, when you broke my heart, and made me cry!? You never listened to me… I told you everything I could, you nevr gave me a chance. And, without a chance you leave me. Not knowing where else to go or who else to go to… I found him! It was your fault you pushed me away, so, dont blame me like you have been for the past years. But, in the end, he was a good guy he treated me well, listened and was honest, everything you werent! After him I saw him, and I liked him. I wasted my time trying to get his attention, and talking to him. But, in the end I cryed over him too! So, this story about my relationships all have one thing in common, I cried for all three of them… And they dont know, they just moved on like it never happened :/

Girls are more than just whiny bitches. We’re more than the hair, the makeup, and the clothes. Too bad some boys don’t understand that.. Our life is a bitch itself. On a daily basis we deal with bitches, backstabbers, lies, boyfriends, crushes, exes, appearance, and so much more. Everyday we spend hours in front of the mirror for you. While doing this we must consider guys & gossipers. If something is too short, they’ll call you a slut. If something is too long, they’ll call you ugly. We go through buckets of ice cream because we’ve been hurt too many times. We cry because bitches wanna hate, and boys wanna bitch. We trust people then end up being stabbed in the back. We learn stuff the hard way. Every guy out there making a period joke, are you forreal? Just because you’re being a little bitch and pissing me off, doesn’t mean that I’m on my period. We get hurt multiple times, but always keep running back to the same people. We try too hard to impress you.. Do you even notice? We sit our asses down on Tumblr and reblog everything that reminds us of you. We spill our guts out to our best friends who have probably had enough of you. We hear what people say about us, and sometimes we break inside. But no matter what, even after everything, we come out strong. We love even though we shouldn’t, and we wait for things that won’t ever happen. But we always manage to act like everything is fine, even though it’s not.
YUP. ♥

what do I do? I know that she is doing things she shouldn’t… but do I tell you? I still like you even though, I shouldn’t! To know that this might hurt you, kills me. I don’t want you to be hurt at all. I feel a lot for you, even though… you have a girlfriend that is a slut… I don’t think that I could be there afterwards, to call yours.. :/

Seeing you happy with her… Makes me sick, sad, and angry! I wish you knew what she is like when you’re not with her… You, you didn’t even think twice, about her… I guess you are just as shallow as the others.! I don’t know what to tell you because I know it wouldn’t change anything! I just plain out don’t know what to do…

I am me

My name is Madelyn. I am 14. I am not here to fool anyone… I am not fake, I am REAL! It is extremely hard to say that I don’t care what people think of me… because I do care! I think to some extent people care about what other people think. I cry, I don’t care who knows because it’s human, and I am human, crying doesn’t make you weak it makes you stronger.

I know that I will be a very very happy person someday with a career and a husband… but, until that day comes all I can do is be me, just like have been doing all along :)